Wow, I had an OK day. BUT it all changed because when I checked the mail, I got a letter from HR stating that they are denying my disability request. It said something about me turning in the paperwork in 15 days late, which makes no sense because I was asked to turn it in after the 7th day of being at home. It also said I am ineligible for payment for the next 31 days. It makes me livid. The thought of this kind of mess this early in my pregnancy just makes me stress out. I was already stressing on the fact of how we would survive after I had the baby, you know day care vs stay at home mom. I am going to be sure to call on Monday to clarify that this letter applies to me. It just bothers me so much because I have seen people at my job fracture their wrist on a medical record and they were off for about a year, and of course it was paid leave. But little old me that thinks its stealing tax payers money to go into work and not be productive doesn’t get any pay.

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I was thinking about this all night last night, just thinking how it was all ponies and rainbows for a while just knowing that I would at least get 55% of my salary, but now its all rotten dead ponies and tornadoes. OK I am pretty sure i am done with my rant.

We don’t have much planned for today, but I have to sit down and think about how we are going to come up with the rent. Ugh and I still have to go buy groceries. I will probably look around for some coupons. I used to go to this really cool site that would list local sales, I just can’t remember what the URL was. Anyways, I just found out we will be going out later on so I better start getting ready.

 Well, these past few days have been really busy. I am starting to feel like a Zofran Addict because I NEED it to survive. I would be in terrible, terrible shape with out it lol. So of course I forget it at home when I need it the most. The hubby will be bringing it by before he goes to work. What a lifesaver. I would be doomed for sure. Well to summarize the last few days. Couch + Sleep + Hot House + Nausea = Messed Up Days. I am just glad to actually be up and walking around. Friday was so bad, I ended up calling off it was so bad. I slept out on the couch pretty much all day and my son was super good. He took sympathy in me being sick and actually tried to take care of me. He did not even complain when I plopped a microwaved frozen kids meal in front of him for lunch. To my surprise he is a lot more independent then I thought. He was able to bring both of us water bottles from the pantry as well as snacks for himself. I felt so bad not being able to do the mom things for him.
Saturday was a disaster, I was worse off then Friday, but the only difference is that I did not feel like actually throwing up. I was just unable to eat or drink anything. SO I was pretty much all day without anything to eat or drink. Saturday night I asked hubby to buy me some lemons so I can sniff and eat. LOL they worked though and thats the important thing. I was actually able to eat half a bagel with peanut butter. I slept some what ok though. Sunday I was feeling much better. I actually got up from that couch/bed and moved around with out feeling too bad. I had my moments. Later that evening I was able to eat a cupcake and a burrito so it was all good. I am so much happier that I actually started taking Zofran because there would be no way that I can function here at work. I mean seriously who want s to puke in a public bathroom. I don’t even want to puke in my own bathroom. !!! No that it is dirty, its: I don’t like to puke period!!
Today has gone by super, super slow. I day dream and come up with ways to make money at work, LOL I know. I have a business idea. I want to keep a tight lip about it though. I would need to look at what my start up costs would be as well as what my target audience would be like. As far as I am concerned I think that market is way over saturated with stuff like this, but I am sure I am a great designer and I can make good decisions as far as cosmetic look is involved. I have some ideas as to what would be included in the shop and other thinks I know would not do so great. I am in to make money but not rip people off. I have seen that people charging waaaaaaay too much for an item. For example 38 bucks for something that cost about 4 bucks to make. That’s not cool at all. I will start to set up shop soon and actually get a business plan done. I hope to see how many other people will be doing what I do. I have the ability to get “wholesale” items so we will see what I can pull off. I am excited. I won’t get my hopes up too much since this is about the third business venture I have had in the last few months. I honestly think the second one would have worked; especially now in this terrible economy, but it would be WAY too much liability. I might offer the services to family and friends though. The service I am speaking of is credit repair services. It’s actually very point blank. The laws are clearly written and easy to understand and execute. If you know all of the proper steps to take it works wonders. No illegal stuff either. That’s what made the plan so great, but it involved a lot of start up and covering my/my staff’s butt. Not something I want to be responsible for at the moment.
Well speaking of money I just read my benefits book for my insurance and it covers everything I only pay 1 office co pay throughout the pregnancy. Yay, a repeat c-section is covered as well. I am so glad. I know I was worried about the costs of having private insurance vs. state Medi-cal, you know because they get everything free. It ticks me off sometimes to think even prenatal vitamins are free. I had to pay 35 dollars lol ok END RANT. It really bugs me because my sister in law had trouble with her military benefits covering certain things and her husband (my brother) was in iraq. So not cool.
Lunch time is around the corner so I’d better get to working or I am going to be swamped later this afternoon.

Edit: We bought the Wii Yay! and BOO Zofran actually makes me feel worse, I have constant stomach pain, and here I am thinking it makes me feel better. Boo!

Man, its going to be a hell of a wait until Monday. Thats when I have my OB appointment. I cannot wait, lol (hehehehehehe) Today was an OK day at work. Same patients same drama as always just different names. Sad but oh so very true. Some lady called and cussed me out today, and I always take it so calmly that my co-workers think that I am insane. I reserve my most sarcastic tone for these calls and always end, thank you for calling, and I was glad to be at your service, LOL and you know that as soon as I hang up I say Bitch.

I ate Thai food for lunch and a mc chicken for dinner. I also bought my self a salad for when I get hungry tonight. McDonalds dollar menu salad looks really good, and it comes with very good dressing. I went to Target, Old Navy and Ross looking for a couple of maternity outfits. I only found some at Ross. I spent about 53 bucks, but its stuff that I can use after the fact. Because I wont be a fit after the baby.  I picked up 3 Maternity shirts, and 2 regular Large shirts. I also got 2 bottoms, Black slacks and Blue Jean Capris. They are very cute. Now all I am going to need to hold me over is a belly band. I want to go to Forever 21 and just find a couple of their tube tops. LOL I am so cheap. I got some leggings from them the other day for 5 bucks. They are super cute, but none of my skirts for so ummmmmmm yeah, I will have to wear them with some type of longer shirt or a dress. I cannot believe how fast I am showing. I guess its because its my second baby, my abdominal muscles did not heal. You’d think that 4 years would do it lol. I have noticed that I cannot walk for too long with out my back starting to hurt a little. Its reassuring and a constant reminder someone is in my belly lol. Well I am off to relax.

So today was the shopping day of all shopping days. We headed out to the DMV (lol at me for thinking it would not be busy) after quickly driving because of the 100 people in line. After speeding away we headed out to IKEA. My most favorite place in the world. We picked up a coffee table, a lamp, a laundry basket, some curtains, a bunch of Tupperware like containers, an easel for the boy, what else… Well then we headed to Target to get the boy a TV for his room. We did not find one and coincidentally we ended up driving to THREE electronic stores, we went to a different Target and found one  there. We rearranged our living room like WHOA. It looks much more open and it flows with traffic. We actually have stuff on the walls now !! eek lol.

All of my decorating stuff is still out. I had it boxed up from the fear of having to repack once we move again. We still have not decided what to do once our lease is up. I so want a fresh start at things, I want to start fresh elsewhere. Oh the dreams. Well a positive note for my future is that I have officially signed up for community college. Heh you have to start somewhere right? I will be going this fall, for what I have not decided. I want to get my masters in social work, but at the same time I want to get into criminal justice. I am just so damn resourceful, I know that will come in handy in a law enforcement career. I always dreamed of either being a Ballerina or a Detective, and since I have failed miserably and doing the ballerina shit, I am DESTINED to be a detective, lol. only time will tell what turn I will be taking. I am very excited though. Another thing I always wanted to be was a singer, and I am know for sure I will not be on American Idol anytime soon lol….. anyways. Ramble ramble.

I am very happy because my best friend  sister is coming home from overseas like yesturday!!!!! I am just waiting, then she will be coming back to cali. Yay I will no longer be friendless. She is like, seriously my partner in crime.

Well I am off to bed, its now 4 am. I need to atleast get some rest because I am going to be going grocery shopping in the am. Yay, we will have groceries.

 LOL its seems like it has been an extremly long long week. It seems like everything is just repeating it self over and over and over. I am so hungry right now, I am so tempted to bake a cake and just have at it. I have not eaten dinner I usually wait for my hubby to come home so I can eat dinner with him. I hate the idea of him eating alone. So I ate a 60 calorie veggie meal. I usually try staying hydrated that keeps the hunger pangs away. I just hate this feeling, I havent felt this way since I started. I do feel like I am starting to *fit* into my jeans. Maybe its my imagination, but still , whatever keeps me going right? Ok so right now I broke down and I am making cake, last week I did the same and make it look very very pretty so I felt guilty by even eating it. I only ate a small slice then. I also burn calories making the cake…lol good excuse right. OMG white cake is so freaking good. I never thought I would eat cake without the frosting. Desperate times call for desperate measures.